And I'm sitting here at the computer writing a blog entry. The rest of the household are in bed apart from me. Even the cats are asleep. And I'm here, in front of the glowing screen, thinking about whether to have one last cup of tea before bedtime, and writing this.
It's what I do, you know. Write, that is. Well, I try to. I've written one book, and I'm beginning to wonder if one was all I had in me. That would be a worry, though, as it's supposed to be the first of a trilogy! That first book took me about ten years to write, and I'm still not completely happy with it. The second one - the one I'm struggling with now - is frustrating me. The tale is there, and I think it's a good one, but it just won't get out of my head and lay itself neatly onto the page.
A lot of my problem is focus. Being a mom, a housewife and a world champion procrastinator, I can always think of something 'better' to do with my time. Granted, anything that involves tidying the house, making sure the family have clean clothes, food in our bellies and a comfy place to sleep could be argued to be more important, I agree. But after all that's done I really don't feel like sitting at the computer and churning out what will most likely end up in the bin (I have a low opinion of my abilities, you see).
However, until I knuckle down and write the damned story, I'm going to have those voices in my head (is it better at this point to make it clear that 'the voices' are in fact my characters? Does that make me seem a little less or a little more psycho?!) urging me to get the hell on with it.
I have a plan. The children go back to school next week (can I hear a 'whoop whoop' from all the parents out there?!) and I will be be blocking myself a two hour session every morning which I will dedicate to writing. I may churn out drivel, but I need to get myself into some good habits, and I think that's a good start. We'll have to see how it goes.
Right, well, I've got my tea now. It's raining, and if there's anything I love more than the sound of rain I've yet to find it. So I'll sign off for now - and I'll let you know how it goes.
Goodnight x
